Man, the design of this site is lacking.

Too bad you can't be more liberal in your choosing of layouts and design your own to an extent. Maybe a switch to greatestjournal is in order? My problem with that is that Blogger rocks GJ's socks.

We'll see.

Anydangway.

So my profile is updating again... I'm averaging 310 words a post or so. Pretty slick.

I said, a few hours ago, that the mechanics had changed. I'm still convinced of that. Here is the story.

"...push the envelope, watch it bend..."

In this case the envelope = Dehui's patience with my antics.

Apparently last night, everything I did in relation to Jin was == an enormous faux pas, and that now that they've told her that I tentatively like her (I hope that's what they told her at any rate) she's puzzled and/or weirded out by my lack of visible feelings toward her. This is mostly because this kind of stuff has happened before and I don't want to make the same old mistakes - so I'm cool with making a whole set of new ones, I guess, in this circumstance. In the past generally Alex's approach into something like this was to go super-emo, and pay attention to only Jin, really until everyone else knew about it and that put extra strain on me - and to boot I had no chance anyway, so it was just a great big ugly mess. Secondly, like Sandee said, Jin has an attitude which I don't want to run afoul of, and I certainly don't want to presume that she tolerates and/or accepts my semi-feelings for her. So lacking confidence and cold, hard facts on the matter, I do nothing. Forgive me if this sounds logical, I tend to think things over a lot.

Anyway, I've got lots of time, and, barring her getting asked out by anyone else [though come to think of it... that's a distinct possibility... that sort of mistake has tripped me up in the past. though i doubt i could have made much of a difference had i taken a different chain of action.] my chance, or chances, will come, and depending on how this unfolds, things will happen. Should be interesting. I'd like to invite you all along for the ride. Cordially, even, too.

I wanted to talk to Dehui about this beforehand [before the blog post, if you folla me] because I figured maybe some info from her would clarifiy matters, and maybe make her annoyed, which is always amusing [i kid, i kid, stop hitting me] being that she talked to both Jin and Sandy about the whole mess last night behind [literally] my back.

So it seems that the success, if that's what you call it, of the poetry experience, was diminished noticeably by my screw-ups last night. I don't think the middle finger over my shoulder helped either.

And got heim Brian and Ray were idiots. Oi. My bleeding eyes, and ears, ugh.

Anyway, stay hip and happening folks, I'm off to listen to some better music than yours. If San, D., or Them reads this, and wants to comment on the situation, hit me up email-style.

-*