well what do you know. i did get a johnny nom after all. for illustration. i can't tell whether to be elated or disappointed so i'm settling for bouts of each. more happy than sad i guess. i threw everything at the wall and something stuck. now i can feel bad-ass at the gala. oh, what were you nominated for? nothing? too bad. you should try it sometime. it's nice. anyway, they haven't released the arts writing shortlist yet. i may still be on that. that's what i'm telling myself, anyway. keep trying. fuck.